Deep In concentration

Finally after such a long time, I have regain back my fateful and serious concentration back in my eyes again. But the only thing is that I feel that my whole personality is gonna change because of the new found* concentration in my eyes. Perhaps this is part of growing up. But at least I can do some useful stuffs now :D. Now the only thing that I don't really hope for is to overwork my body again till I lose myself in some deep shit again. I really don't want to take some stupid chances again and be a failure. I want to at least do some useful things in life. Perhaps I put too much thought into my eyes now. But seriously, I feel kind of empty, solemn and kind of sad with a tinge of happiness in myself right now. Hmmm..... I really think that this june holiday is really gonna change me forever~

Unhappiness

I never thought that I would return back to my blog. Maybe it's because I haven't realli been using it :/ .... So much have happened this few days. I hav finally stepped down from my cca activities and i feel so great about it =D ... But i have to focus on studies sia. I'm realli not nhappy about my chinese prelim results cause I noe that i coud hav gotten much higher!!!!!!!!!!! I'm also nt happy wif my mom cus she perposely told me my maths test results when i DUN WANT HER TOO!!!!!!!! HATE HER LAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm realli unhappy but i dun't wanna express myself. It is either people noe that I'm unhappy then they dun wanna do anyting abt it or they realli dun noe that I'm realli unhappy becus i always keep my sadness and unhappiness under wraps my smiles. But I guess that i need some time to recover from this trauma and then i will slowly go hardcore and win some bitches and realli show ppl what I'm realli made of! But i realli nid a break now :/ That's it for now

2011

This is the start of the new year and I still don't know whether will it go rite for me... This is the final year in secondary school for me. I have made a resolution that I would not procrastinate anyway but I keep having a weird feeling in my soul like something unexpected will always happen to me in this fateful year 2011. I hope that I will do well in both my studies and CCA but the only sad thing is that despite all my hardwork in my cca, I still don't get recognise for what I did. I don't whether issit because of last year the national police annual parade in which I wanted to quit because of my studies then they have a bad impression on me. Or was it because of one of my fren which cause my downfall which is like a teacher's pet. :/.... He never realli do anything and yet he gets nomitated for every mother fking gd ting in the cca and yet there are a few people like me who nvr get nominated for anything at all. I am not jealous or anyting because I noe that this kindof stuff is abit screwed up since last year so I will just try my best in both my my studies and CCA,.a ahaope that I can do as well as my brother man as to not let my parents look down on me and also not to let anyone down....

Hahas

Yes, I hav finally completed my holiday homework and can slack and focus on what I want like CCA and slacking

It's been so long........

It's been a long time since I last used com or internet to do tings.....There are so many toublesome tings goin on in my mind now :(....I was angry and sad for don't noe how many countless times....Somemore I have been made to stay back in sch till 6.30pm every weekday juz to study!!!!!!!! I can oni go when I have tution all tis.'..So unfair!!!!!!!1 It's nt as if I'm back in my studies or anyting....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR....And still nid to do so many tings :(

Return back to sch...Sianzzz...

The sch holidays has ended and sch for the 1st day was quite fun cus it was very slack...Played around alot and the new canteen food available at the canteen cus the other vendors was acker unreasonably.....But sch today was quite fun and I suddenly fell sick and I 'm nt feeling much better man :(......

Hmmm.... :D

It's been such a long time since I last posted someting. At last my exams are over and can slack for awhile now before I continue with my usual life....My results are oni okok not that gd....But at least can go out slack man XD....but slacking too much can be seriously boring!...But playing my psp can always be my remedy since it's fixed XD....Haha....But there's two tings I like...Is going out with my friends and slacking off :D

Sianz......

CCA step down creremony has ended and sec 3's have now taken over their ccas...This is whr hell truly begins for sec 3's...plus still must totally concentrate on my studies to pull my marks to as high as my marks last year....So hard and tiring....PLus tis year cross country the competition is so fierce wif the bball boys which r super fast r running...Last year they did not run bcus of comp...Comp so fierce man...Luckily I am doin duty....Few reasons is bcus of my shoulder injury and I oso cnt run fast cnt get anyting at all....Plus still got some ppl not happy bcus of cca posting results...I am taking sec 2s wif waikin and zachary and some taking sec 1s tis year n next year...so many conflicts for nthing man....

Bad luck....

I have suffered from a whole week of bad luck man...so unlucky man....Still everything is still nt goin my way....So unlucky and I am goin to double up what I have done man....So unlucky....Strangely enuf...I feel someting strange in my heart man...Nvm but yings r still very hectic for me!!!!!!!!!! Screwes man...Sian....Everyday is so BORING!!!!!!!!!
Gdbye..wait for my next post...

Tired....

Today was my total defence day and it was pretty tiring man...even though I did have to participate in the skip....But still must wear uniform all day....Furthermore, I was kept busy all day until at night then I was free to prepare my uniform and make my fake batons....N to polish my boots of cus....Thus I slept at abt 2am at night....Strange thing is for some reason,I woke up at 5am for nothing man...N brush my teeth and wash my face....Then When I rested,I almost got up late bcus I overrested cus I oni slept for 3 hrs....So tired...I still must revise my work...I actually did not have to slp yesterday if I had revised my schwork man then I decided to go to slp or my parents will confirm scold me to hell...My past few days was quite unlucky man...SUPER SUAY MAN cus nthing went the way I wanted and I almost got into trouble wif a teacher....Don't want to talk abt it.....Gdbye

So busy.....

My results are cetainly not looking gd for me man....They are not my idea results...and i heard from my fren that must score 70 percent or more or i wil drop back NA...WTH...even some express pupils cnt get 70percent man...Those who get is top few percent man....Furthermore I am kept busy with both CCA and schoolwork man....There is so many things that I will be kept busy Till the end of my Mid-year-Examinations...Shit man...So busy!!! Somemore since I have my cca annual parade which fall on my AP days, I will have to study my sciences:Biology and Chemistry. Now I will have to do those worksheets and then brush up on my other subjects....shit lah....I will have to show my true work and determination which I had not use for quite some time....I will have to study everyday and brush up on watever I nid in order to score higher....

Busy......And fun man ^_^

Aiya...my common tests are comming man and I am goin to be busy 100% man wif schoolwork,CCA and common tests....I wonder how am i goin to manage all tat and furthermore my arm injury is comming back and i don't noe how to treat it man...Even my mother cannot do anyting abt it...Looks like I have to deal wif it all alone man even if is takes me 4ever to treat it.Sec 3 life is very tiring man wif cca and school work pilling up day by day. I really have to go full swing into serious concentration mode man if I want to graduate at sec 4 wif my classmates now....And The photos and comments put at the Gess camp was pretty funny and nice. And my Fren actually confessed to a girl tat he loves her..lol He is brave man i would say. I hoe tat my arm and shoulder injury would get well soon man...
Gdbye

Back from camp at last...so funny and happy

I just came back from camp yesterday and principal meet the parents session cum prize givin ceremony....I am goin to share my camp experience wif u all...
In the mornin woke up as 1 of the earliest of my frens and went to sch wif all of my camping frens..got onto the bus which is quite borin and when we all took the ferry, most of the students got seasick because of the rough sea and eventually vommited..got into our grp and went to do our cip prog...quite fun after that and my frens and I played with a ball which must be blowned up wif air...Quire fun and some of my frens made use of the ball to bully one of my classmates...after that went to bath and went back to our dorm and we played ...so freaking fun cus we went and bodyslammed each other ^_^..so fun and ate at another table wif 3 of my another frens cus nt enuf space..and i had to eat alone ...so borin sia. Nightime was fun and we slept so late cus my frens and I kept playin. The second day was so tiring cus had to wake up early for sampan rowing. Sang the national anthem and the pledge cus my principal wanted us to do it. Went to prepare for camp and went for sampam rowin and it was so fun... And i got wet but nt as wet as some of my classmates...went to wash up and went for sandcastle building and learnt some lessens like must not be rash and the last part was so funny cus my frens go and make a sculpture of me wif my two (tings)..so funny and on the first day we played wif the stickers durin cip prog..another funny joke...Then went to eat lunch and went on to treasure hunt which was fun and i got aliitle bit sick cus I had a aliitle bit of a headache. Went to a place which was very windy and cooling and my frens went and caught some small crabs. Went to coconut tree climbing after that and when I actually fitted into the harness and when i climbed, the first few times were unsucessful cus i couldnot get a gd grip and I went to another tree and climbed..My frens were surprised at y i went there and cheered for me and i really need to thank everybody for the support they have given me and after that we went to eat dinner and checked into the hotel rooms which was pretty lousy cus it does nt have the basic nessities..went to campfire and it was pretty fun. at the last day,i woke up wif quite a headache. we went to pack our stuff and went to sing the national anthem and said the pledge...we then went to the sch again to say gdbye and to give them some presents. After that we went to take a gruelling bus ride and went for some shopping which only interested me in some tings but i did not buy anyting except for some snacks and drinks. After that we went to the ferry terminal and bade gdbye to instructor jie min and robin(at the campsite bcus he needed to follow the sec 4's to climb up a mountain)...so sad and happy...The ferry ride was borin man and no kid...after that went to take a coach back to sch for the principal meet the parents session cum prize giving ceremony. It was quite borin and I was very hungry and when I went on top to collect my prize for best in science and history,I tink i got the loudest clap and cheers from everywhere and saw my last year classmates smilling so brightly and I even saw the principcal looking so happy and smilling and went talked to somebody. I want to thank everybody who cheered for me yesterday..I really appreciated it. This is the most summarised version of my camp and principal meet the parents session. Gdbye and I really nid to go and revise for my common tests next fri and i really had a fun camp

What the...

My ace camp is tmr and i haven prepare everyting!!!There are still tings here n there which i nid to take and there are alot of tests next week to revise for!!! So many tests...looks like i have to burn the midnight oil like what i did yesterday bcus I drank the nescafe coffee...Phew super potent sia... one wrong move and i would had have to stay up the whole night like what happened to my bro 2 yrs b4....Hope tat my ace amp to bintan will be fun ^_^

Phew.....Tiring days

I just rushed through abt 7 to 8 homeworkand there are tests comming up soon and there's also my tution homework...I have so many homework!!! Almost exhausted all of my energy...I hope i can rest during my ace camp which starts on wed and ends on friday...Why must everyday be so tiring??? I hope i can just take a break from homework and rest man...Hope everyting will go smoothly during my ace camp. Since my new sch principal came, she changed everyting...even the core values..ccas..etc.

The Change...

I did not even noe tat my voice had change so much during the holidays...I oni noticed it during yesterday when i had my cca....It has changed so much and I oso realised that i had lost quite some weight recently bcus my sch pants which was customed pant kept falling down even though i buttoned the pants to the max...Sch is alittle boring cus my frens are nt in the same class as me. Whats worring me the most now is my injury on both of my arms n shoulders...It hurts alot if u exert your hands too hard...Gdbye

Tiring!!!!

Express life is really very difficult becaue there is alot of things which i still don't noe n sec 3 life is really very boring bcus oni one of my classmates is wif me in the class...Borin....Homework are given every single day and so much!!! N it is so hard to compete wif my new classmates....I hope tat I can do well in this class...My lucky thing was tat the edusave scholarship award money tat i received was 650 dollars!!! Tats a huge amount man. My father tells me to withdraw half of it from the bank cus it's a cheuque n has to be disposited 1st n i don't noe wat to do wif it!! It's such a huge amount even though it's half of the money....Phew...school days r really getting tougher n tougher man...Expecially when my maths is not really gd...

New year with New beginnings

It's finally the start of a new year and almost everything has been going well for me so far...Still have some minor things to take care of b4 my sch term start.. so frustrating sia...luckily almost all my hw has been finished alrdy n don't nid to worry much. For this year, I am going to work extremely hard bcus i am transfering to express and I am going to score as high as I can n furthermore,I am preparing for the start of the new sch year...I have almmost everything ready to start of the new sch year....I really hope that everything will go smoothly for me this year or I'm doomed for sure.....New term...Here I come and I am going to start anew to begin off the wonderful year...

Aiya...disaster

My family trip to china was lik a stupid disaster bcus my retarted auntie was there to ruin it...She does'nt noe how to do anyting n still act big n i was freaking unlucky througout the trip n I don't really wan to go on another family trip again sia n I am having a stupid string of ba luck. N school's starting soon n i hope all will go on smoothly in school cus i got everyting ready. I really hav a weird habit of remmembering things n experimenting wif stuff.

Now i am going to tell u abt my stay in hongkong even though it's been so long

Day 1: Met with my frens whose parents took me to the airport. Went to eat a few things...My fren's parents treated us.
Then we went to the wrong place to meet u. lucky nothig happened n During the flight, my frens n i almost never write the immirgration form.
Then we alighted at the airport,Phew there was a gap in between the connected and the breeze was very cooling bcus i nvr wear my jacket.
went to eat at my hotel"s restaurant....Food still okok and i hate TEA!!!
Went to the golden bauhinia square, Phew my hands were freezing and couldn't take any gd pictures.Then we went to the victoria peak and it was a chilling 14 degrees man. Our last destination for the day was the repulse bay..It was also very cold n i Bought a few things.
Went to eat dinner
Day 2: Went and ate a buffet bfast cus i did not ate supper.
Then went to a primary sch to visit them and their uniform groups...They remind me of my pri sch days and the childern r very cute and the sch is veery nicely built.
Went to eat lunvh at a local restaurant. The went to take a cable car to Ngong ping n went up the great budha...So cold n i bcame a terrorise-like figure bcus it was very cold. Can breathe out smoke.
Took cable car back n went to shop and i oni bought a shirt bcus i did not hav much much money. Afterthat went to eat dinner at local restaurant. My fen n i went to buy supper which was instant noodles with our shorts, we were freezing to death.
Day 3: Went to eat bfast n then went to disneyland to play the whole day. It was very fun i should not hav take the roller coaster...Went to eat luch inside there n the food was not bad. Joel n I slept at the restaurants while the otheres went repeatedly to the roller coasters. After that, we went to the Mongkok night night market to shop..Bought quite a few things including a watch.
Day 4(Last day): Hotel morning bfast n then went to take our luggage out n then went to ocean park for the whole day. My frens n I went to take 4 rides n ate lunch there. We then went out of our last destination n then to the airport. Went to check in our luggage n then went to the check in place n waited for flight which was delayed for an hour n the tour leader showed us trices n we ate a few thing s cus we r very hungry n played card till the flight. Bade gdbye to Hongkong n went to take the flight..Starving to death on the flight till dinner was served on th plane super late abt 11 plus am.

Thats all for my trip......:p n tks to the tour Guide James for guiding us n tour leader Jonathan for sharing with us abt your army days.